sorrowful, yet always rejoicing

"We put no stumbling block in anyone's path, so that our ministry will not be discredited. Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses...dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.
We have spoken freely to you, Corinthians, and opened wide our hearts to you. We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us. As a fair exchange—I speak as to my children—open wide your hearts also."

2 corinthians 6:3,4, 9-13



addie brought this passage to my attention this weekend. now it burns within me...and yet to me God speaks differently than he spoke to her. his word is living and active.

all i can say is that you can take this world from me. i don't need it anymore, for i am finally free...my hear is spoken for by the LORD God Almighty. i want jesus more than anything. i feel what Paul is talking about this week. circumstances so quickly shift, and things have been good and bad. tonight, more news brings me down, and my heart burns especially for my friends and my roommate right now.

bad news makes me sorrowful, and many of my circumstances should make me feel down. yet i have this incomprehensible joy that envelops me each day. although i feel absolute sorrow about certain circumstances, i cannot help but smile at the thought of my Lord Jesus Christ. i can't contain it. i must tell everyone i meet of the amazing things that God has done for me. i just can't contain it. i must tell. i must.

during my sophomore year i told god for the first time in my life that he could touch any part of my life, taking away whatever he wanted to, just so that i could know God more. i look back and realize that my life has taken a drastic turn since then...full of sorrow, pain, discomfort, and difficulty. yet, i wouldn't trade any of these experiences for the insurpassible greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.

hallelu jah, praise the Lord!