01 December 2006

only a beggar

i can't believe what patience God has for me. he's given me everything already, and yet i have this terrible tendency to wander from him to other things, even unconsciously. i just can't cut it. i can't do it. i can't live up to what God has called me to. its frustrating...and yet it is so perfect, because God receives more glory from it. he takes joy in picking me up after i fall. he loves to work through the broken tool that i am so that he might receive more glory and more joy. i'm so destitute and broken. i'm a beggar, and yet i'm treated like a son of the King. i am so far out of control. it is all God, and my life rests in his hands. i can't do anything but ask him to take me, because only he has the power to change my heart.

awake my soul! sing to your Savior and your King! lift your gaze from the things of this world and turn it upwards to the God of Light and of surpassing Glory. O praise Him, my soul!

take me, Lord. it is all you. i'm recklessly abandoned to your. help me to let go of my life, to die to myself and follow you no matter the cost.

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